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Let thine ear now be attentive...Neh. 1;6

Yes, my 6ft 17 year old, who eats supper twice a day was hungry again. I tried to ignore him when he requested a second meal as I wanted my time. I wanted to study and read. He was becoming an annoyance and I was not happy.

As I sat in my reading room I heard two words come bellowing from his downstairs bedroom. "Dad, supper." I am thinking, "It's 10:00P.M. I am not going to cook now. No way." So I tried again to ignore him. "DAAAAD, SUPPER."

John is a type A personality and the shorter the conversation the better for him. Realizing that my quiet time was shattered I got up and cooked. But my attitude was definitely whinny. And of course all the way through I am thinking, "He is old enough to cook for himself. What am I doing?" When I gave him the food I said in no uncertain terms, " Don't be so demanding when you want something it is rude." Then he hit me with, " I am still sick. I still have a fever." I went back to try to recapture some quiet time and ten minutes later I heard him bellow four words. "Dad, I love you."

In my desire to do what I wanted to do I had forgotten that John had stayed home from school and was sick. All he really wanted was some sympathy and attention. I was so caught in my own little world with my own little agenda that I failed to tune in.

As I think back on that night I realize there are times when God wants my attention. times when He is knock, knock, knocking and I fail to tune in, to listen.

I want to be a man that listens with a deep intent to what my Father is trying to tell me, show me. I want to be tied so tight to the Holy Spirit that there is no question who is leading. I want to be a broken vessel that can pour it out for Christ. Apostle Paul calls it a Godly sorrow, a teachable spirit. That and that alone is where my heart must lie.

In praise and adoration
I come to You today.
I seek now exhortation
tell me what You have to say.

Oh teach me, please reach me,
show me all Your plans.
Please change me, arrange me.
Do now all You can Oh lord.

I come now lost and broken
ready to be filled.
My doubts have all been spoken
crushing my self will.

Oh search me, immerse me,
whisper in my ear.
Convince me, convict me,
erase all of my fears
Oh Lord.

Brad McGill
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