Search Me

Therefore watch, and remember that for three years I did not cease to warn everyone night and day with tears. Acts 20:31

Ever since I asked Christ back into my life I see things differently now. There is an intense desire to spread the good news of Jesus Christ. There is a weight and seriousness to my days. I feel a remorse for those that don't know Him and I am committed to do something about it.

The sorrow of others plights have touched me like never before. When I drive by the homeless man and have to pull over because I am blinded by my tears I now understand. No longer am I too busy to listen, too blinded to pray and too unwilling to open up my heart. I no longer am the man that was reaching for the wrong things in life. I wear a new garment now.

As the Holy Spirit convicts I weep. As Paul wept for three years I wonder if it will ever stop. Yet, I hope I never loose that sensitivity and awareness of the injustices of our times. The tears wash away my guilt. Sometimes I lay face prone to the floor emptied out. I watch as my tears splat on the floor and taste the salt as it dances on my tongue.

God knew this was the process He had to take me through. I was like a wild stallion that needed to be broken. Now, I have surrendered to my Father and it is a most beautiful sight.

Search Me

There is a voice that is crying
down deep somewhere.
And it comes from the depths of within.
So I ask my precious Lord
have I fallen into sin?

Have I grieved the Holy Spirit?
Have I failed to talk to You?
Have You shown me something lately
that I have chosen not to do?

Have I overstepped my boundaries
and hurt the Holy one?
Have I turned my back on Jesus?
Did I forsake His only Son?

Please search me and show me
if I have stained Your name.
For You know the way of the righteous
and if I am to blame.
Cleanse me in the darkness
so I can sing Your praise.
For only You are worthy.
I will praise You the rest of my days.

Your love the ultimate expression.
Your gift from You to me.
So search me God the Father
let me see only what You see.

Brad McGill
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