How Did She Know

but be transformed by the renewing of your mind , that you may prove what is good and acceptable and perfect will of God.

As I look back over my last year it is obvious to me how God was working to draw me close to Him. After my wife left one of the first people I talked to was my wife's best friend.
I thought she could give me some magic answer. I thought she, of all people, could give me some step by step process that would save our marriage. Her words surprised me. Her wisdom will never be forgotten.

She said " This not about you and Lorna. This about you and God." So how did she know my prayer life was weak? How did she know I was not operating with the Holy Spirit guiding me? How did she know I was not seeking the Lord?

As I drove away her words cut like a knife and stung me. I began a journey down a rough road asking God to change me, re-arrange me so I could be used for His specific purpose.

The Holy Spirit began to fill my heart with a conviction that I needed to surrender my self will. I had to. I needed to be transformed. I needed to be changed from the inside out.

I began to read and understand the messages wrapped in the scriptures. The Lord woke me up at exactly 4:18 every morning. I would often say ''Lord, here I am talk to me." And He would. Words of praise and song would pour out of me. Often times so fast that I could barely capture the words.

So I can honestly say I am thankful for the many tears and retching pain of divorce. I lost my wife but gained a relationship with the Lord that guides my every step.

How did she know
that God was not center stage?
How did she know that I was filled with rage?
How did she know
I had let go of His hand?
How did she know
I needed that gentle reprimand.

Was it a dream
or a bright shinny light?
Did God whisper to her
in the middle of the night?

God sent this friend
to come to my side.
To tell me He loved me
and because He did He died.

Brad Mcgill
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